A bit about me and life and the mess that is my headspace
I suffer from anxiety. There I said it. My mental health is an absolute mess. I have coping mechanisms and heaven help me I try and I try to cope but sometimes the demons inside my psyche win. I manage to go through the motions of day to day life but sometimes the external world causes the fragile walls I have built to collapse. Circumstances I cannot control creep in and take over the orifices of my conscious. I turn to yoga, to breathing exercises, to distractions and God forbid the taboo that is alcohol. Not enough to affect the day to day functions but enough to create a warm buzz that make scouring the recent events of the world we live in manageable. God forbid I face the 'nightmares' of the real world without a nice calm buzz to cause reality to blur and my racing heart and mind to slow enough to keep me tethered to Earth enough to manage. Anxiety, the fear of the unknown in this technogical age where everything is a single click away.